Chasity

From Candice’s blog:

I was in a car accident. I split my head open in two places. On the left side it was the size of a fist & you could see my skull. I went to close as to scraping it. The right side was more toward the backside of my head,not near as big but equally as deep. The ambulance picked me up & took me to the mesquite “Mesa View” hospital & said the laceration was to big for them to treat. So they temporarily stitched it,cleaned me up a bit & transported me to “Sunrise” hospital (Las Vegas) where they put me under & did a surgery. I begged & begged the doctor not to cut my hair so the surgery took a bit longer then expected & the cut (on the left) was right along my hairline so hopefully I wont have any noticable scars. They released me this morning with some multi-vitamin pills (To help build up iron due to losing too much blood) & perkisets (Fuck it, I cant spell). Allthought I cant pick them up until tommorrow…..the left side of my face is deeply swelled & horribly ugly. Ryan was supposed to be home but so far no word….go fucking figure. Oh well, id rather him not see me like this anyways.

Im not going to be in school this week,doctors orders.

To the few people that were there. I thankyou so much for keping me alive & breathing.
Matso & Kraze ran quite a distance in order to get help for me…….I love you guys so much. You’ll never know how much I appreciate what you did. Without you there might not have been an ambulance.
Anthony, thank you for going to flag them down & keeping me calm.
Jonah,thankyou for staying close to me & talking to me, without you I probably would have blcked out.
Danielle,For calling for an ambulance & other help that was needed. I love you girl <3
Amber I know you were trying to help in anyway that you could. We were all just to afraid of the outcome. I appreciate it & I know you were watching over me.
Sammo, For going to the hospital with me & holding my hand. For calling my dad & explaining what happened when I didnt have enough will power to do it.
Tony, For putting together a great night & being there for me when it got bad…..I love you man. I appreciate everything you did

For any of those I may have forgotten. Your effots do not go unappreciated. Thankyou for all the love I recieved on my cellphone and myspace & those who showed up at my door to make sure I was allright. I love you all.

Holy cow, after I read that my heart dropped. I couldn’t imagine losing any of my friends, so remember guys: be safe, be smart, and make wise choices!

Ok, so yesterday I was at work. I’d only been there for about an hour and my allergies just started killing me. So I tried to let it pass - but it didn’t, so I called my mom and asked her to bring me some medicine and eye drops. About 15 or so minutes later she showed up and by that time my eyes were absolutely killing me. There was so much liquid in them that it looked like I was crying. So I swallowed my pill and put in some drops and went back to work feeling fine.

About an hour later I looked in the mirror again to make sure everything cleared up fine - and much to my surprise my right eye would only open about half as much as it normally does. The skin between my eyelashes and my eyebrow was kind of drooping over my eye causing it to look much different than my other one that went back to normal.

So I finished my shift at work and came home. When I got home I asked my mom to look at me and asked if she noticed anything different and she commented that my eyes were different. Throughout the rest of the day they didn’t improve. So my hope was that when I woke up this morning that everything would be normal again… I looked in the mirror… and they weren’t. I thought they had improved a little, but then when I asked my mom she said they were still very noticable.

So yeah… I just hope that they go back to normal.

Tomorrow is the last Friday of the year that we have to go to school! I’m so ready for school to be out, especially after this week has just dragged along… I’m not sure what I expect to accomlish over the summer, but I’m ready to find out.

He pulled me close,
And he looked at me,
And that fear that once was there,
Was gone!
I used to wonder what he thought,
But now I know,
It’s in the way he hugs me,
The way he holds my hand,
In our late night phone calls,
That shows me he is a man.
He accepts my past,
Even though it’s kinda rocky,
He praises me,
For rising above what I used to be.
I know it’s still soon,
So I won’t say too much more,
Just that he’s different than all the others - and I’m so amazed that he’s mine.

An “eye for an eye” leaves the whole world blind.

Ok, so I hope I’m not the only one who does this - but when I’m on a web page and I want to go “back” - instead of just clicking the “back” button from where I’m at on the page, I have to scroll to the top of the page and then I’ll click it.

Ok, so it’s a whole 2:30 in the morning! Yay! And I cannot sleep at all. I think I drifted off to sleep in my room around 11:00 or so. And then woke up around midnightish feeling already awake. And then for the past hour I haven’t been able to even shut my eyes. All the while my teeth are killing me, as well as my throat and my ankle. And I’ve sneezed only a gillion times today. I don’t know if I’m sick or just allergies - or both, either way(s) this really sucks.

So yeah while I was attempting to sleep I just kept having the most random thoughts go through my head and I couldn’t quite make sense of them. I’m almost thinking about not going to school, and if I just thought about me then I wouldn’t. However this is the last rehearsal day in theatre - and Joey and I still need to go through our scene a lot. And in web design Andrew and I are working on a page together, and this is the second to last rehearsal for wind ensemble before the concert. So I can’t just miss this day… but oh how I wish I could.

Cause not that I can’t do it, it’s just that I don’t want to to go to school then to work then to the drama awards tonight - all off of the accumulated 2 hours of sleep that I managed to scrounge for.

Update: So I went a laid down again - and dozed off around 4:00 - and then woke up at 6:00.

Been thinking about the future lately, after high school… what I’m going to do…. I’m scared.